School Policy

Getting Kicked in the Ass

I have a class here at school that is just kicking my ass. They are the lower of the two levels at the school and, thus, might have the proverbial chip on their shoulder. They don't seem motivated. They talk all the time. Class participation is nil.

Some days I leave here almost walking on air. But days like today leave me completely spent. I wonder what the hell I'm doing here. I wonder if they have an edge on me. I think part of the problem is that I haven't been doing as much homework as I need to do.

When I was a therapist, I would walk in to a group completely unprepared and I knew I had enough tricks up my sleeve to get me through any situation. I knew that if plan A didn't work, I could go to plan B immediately and in a way that made it look almost planned - sometimes. Here, I feel like I'm putting my hand into a bag expecting to come up with something, but there's nothing there. Nothing.

I keep going back to my old standby - writing. "Write blah blah blah." Granted, they need to write, but I feel like it's just bullshit and that it comes off as such. I feel transparent up there.

Today, while explaining grammar, a student caught me TWICE with the wrong type of sentence. "Isn't that past continuous and not past simple?" She intimidates me with crap like that. I need to come up with sentences before class. That was the moment I thought, "I've GOT to do my homework!" Fortunately tomorrow is my day off. I totally need it.

posted by Philip @ 10:07 AM